Monday, April 30, 2007

A SMILE dat refused to leave MY FACE!!! :)

Yesterday when I got up it seemed like jz another day!!!

Nothng different to do or think…Infact I was tied up wit so mch wrk that I cudnt evn thnk of getting sm rest….N dat had made me feel sick!!!! Tryng to cope wit so many deadlines together…it was another very very busy day!!!

I never thought the day wud turn out the way it did!!!

Bt it strtd d usual way, getting up late…tryng to do sm wrk….bt ended up chatting rather than doing the assignment…a frnd of mine jz pakauing me as usual….

Then sm calls….then again a bit of chattin…n by the time I strtd wrkng seriously….HERE GOES THE POWER!!!!...

N I end up yelling at d MSEB people for these power cuts – A BIG TIME NUISANCE!!!!

Nt knowing wot to do…n as pissed off as I was…I thot I wud better not do smthng related to studies…N that was a gud nuf reason to pick up my novel and finish it off!!! J

Some interesting scenes in it…reading which I ended up laughing….n sch wer the scenes dat laughter turned into a smile n stayed with me…jz refusing to GO!!!

Again wen the power came…I was bck to my wrk…bt dis time I had decided that I wud do sm serious wrk…n I strtd wit it…bt aftr smtime…getting bored…I got bck to chatting….n then 1 of my frnds showed me sm community with hilarious remarks..!!! N again dat smile wich never went away…turned into another round of laughter!!!

Later in the eve, I went out, a friend called up n there I was gvng him a treat of my faltu to faltu P.J.’s…Men!! I was having a gr8 time at his expense!!!!!! I had hired an auto n as I spoke to him on phone…I ended up gvng the rickshaw wala more than wot I intended….I cud do nothng bt laugh at my sheer stupidity, especially coz I had argued wit him to tk me to the place at a lower rate than wot he had told!!!! Dat was dat….

Nw into the temple I went…I had to ask them to do sm poojas n all….bt as I was late for the day…they said “they cant do it today”….So then I askd wud they do it tom…N I was so concerned abt it that I ended up askng the same Q a no. of times….At this an uncle there answered “Oh!! No, v wont do it tom” N he strtd laughin…coz of d expression on my face…I was worried n bewildered coz 1 said they wud do it…n the other was contradicting him….All my worry was jz dat if this pooja isn’t done then m gonna get hell lot of scoldings at home for hvng rchd there late!!!!!!!!! Bt then lukng at dat uncle’s face I realized he was jz jokin….Oh!! then I cud do nothng bt join him in his laughter….

The smile jz remain pasted to my face!!! Nt ready to leave me!!!! N there she remained….N people everywhere jz lukng at me coz I was smiling, particularly at no1 or nythng, as if I was mad!!! N that thought only broadened my smile!!...assuring them that I was actually mad!!! Hahahaha!!!!

Ignoring these stares…I walked on ‘n on…N all the while I was jz thnkng abt all those thngs dat brought a smile on my face…N I was smiling smiling n smiling all the way!!! Bt suddenly lost in thought, I tripped n was abt to fall, bt smhw I regained my balance and took care of myself…People stared at me more!!! N I cudnt help but laugh at my carelessness!!! Hehehehehe…..

N such was my day!!! Dat jz began normal bt turned out to be all smiles…n this 1 day will go dwn my memory lanes as the most beautiful n the most pleasant days of my LIFE!!!

N such days are really necessary in this fast fast world…where u hv no time to stop n think n no time to smile at such trivial issues…Bt jz thnk hw mch smile these small thngs brought to my face@!!! N hence so many others smiled to coz of me!!! N wot else cud b the best thng better than “Mkng others smile with ur own stupidity!!!!!!!!!”

So kp Smilin!!! Sch trivial issues cud also mk ur day the best…So gv them a thot!!! N don’t jz let them float by as if it doesn’t matter!!!!

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Am I wrong?????

Am I wrong?? Am I bad??

Am I just one heck of a gal
Who always does everything wrong??
Who doesnot know how to behave??
One who doesnot know how to speak??
'n doesnot, above all, know to keep mum???

Am I wrong, if I do simple things like, sway to the music??
'n dance to the beats of a song??
If I while away my time, by doing things I like??

Why is it that whatever I like is always bad or forbidden??
'n when I finally do it, I get hell lot of scoldings....?

Am I wrong, if I chatter away endlessly???

If not, then, why do people wonder when I will shut my mouth???
Then again, if I keep mum, why can't they stand my silence...

What people donot understand is that....
These are the ways to keep worries of my mind....
To smile even in desperate times,
'n to shun the tears, that otherwise fill my eyes.....

It feels so lonely!!! with noone to speak to 'n fight....
With noone to share my feelings....
'n noone to confide, I realise!!!
'n so when I get someone...on 'n on I go....chattering wildily...
speaking about good 'n bad times with much ado....

Am I wrong??? Am I bad???
The Question still remains unanswered...
'n I wonder and wonder....
'n while doing so off I drift to sleep....
wetting my pillows...n fighting against sheer pain....

(mebbe I am bad...n wrong...coz y wud evry1, otherwise, have a prob with me???)

Tuesday, April 3, 2007

Nostalgia.....

When I look back at those beautiful days,
How I wish I could get them back
It brings a smile, slow and subdued...
In concert with tears of pain and hurt....

When I think of those tender moments with you,
How I miss them and How I miss you!!!
Your memories well up in my eyes...
A product of our affectionate ties...

They long to see you and hold your stare....
Although you are in them everywhere....
Sweetheart!! for you, I do care!!
Anything for you I will bear...

Nostalgia rushes through my veins,
Rushing in like waves of sweet pain....
Breaking, one after the other, the walls...
Walls of my strength and will power...

Breaking through them and leaving me bare...
Naked to hurt and the desolate air....
Uhhh!! Nostalgia.....

----Dedicated to my darling friend....u make me feel divine... :)

A million thanks to my frnd who has helped me make this poem more effective...thanks a lot....