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1. Post these rules

2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves

3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts

4. At the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named

5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged.

Hey Raves!!! Thnx for distrbng me wit a tag lik this!!! Nwz here's one for those who wanna know abt me!!! All d best for all those who read thru it!!!! To strt wit....

1. M a cmplt emotional FOOL!!! Coz evn aftr hvng gone thru sooooooo many failed relationships (to be read as frndships...) I hv nt learnt that I shudnt be livin my life by the heart....

2. Secondly, m a fulltooooo FLIRT!!!! all my frnds vil agree.....dats an open secret!!!
But, howevr, i hv nt had a single relationship..... dats a truth of ma life!!!

3. M eternally Passionate....bt nt many of them know abt this....they r jz a countable few who hv seen dat side of mine....

4. I may cm across as a very serious gal...bt a vry few know dat m d CRAZIEST gal on earth...n dat I can do the craziest thng u can thnk of....

5. N hey evry1 beware of me!!! coz m extremely possessive!!!! though I dont show it off!!!

6. I am as u thnk of me...if u thnk m a child...dats wot u vil get frm me...childish behaviour....I mirror ur thoughts abt me.....

7. M BLUNT...n dat may hurt ppl...bt i dont care...If u ask me smthng...U vil only get the TRUTH...if u dont want dat dont ask my opinion...

8. Inspite of all these...Inspite of wot i am...u vil only get love frm me...coz i am a mad gal...who breathes, eats and drinks LOVE!!!!

I thnk dats nuf!!!!

Mood: Good bt nt dat good.....bad bt nt dat bad....njoyng....bt have lots of wrk!!!!

Listening: Nothng is gonna chng my love for u....

Reading: hehehe...dis one is quite boring...M reading research papers.....

Eating: LOVE!!!!

Drinking: LOVE!!!!

I tag the following people and hope that this tag will irritate them as it irritated me...and will force them to vomit out some truth abt themselves, so that I can get back to them. :D

Sonali...
David....
Asif....
Arshad...
Ud...
Hari...
Ani...
Pradeep....

Death's Inevitable!!!

This one is for one and all.....

Let me start with a Question....

How many of you have atleast a single person in ur life to whom u have not said what u wanna....????
How many people are there in ur life whom u love/ like/ adore....bt they dont know abt this....?????
I am sure evry1 of u have atleast 1 sch person in ur life....be it ur mom, dad, sisters, brothers, friends, or any girl or guy that u like.....
If u have smthng in ur mind that u wanna tell them.....plz say it out....coz u cant b sure wen life takes dat person away frm u.....
I have had a frnd whom i have unnecessarily ignored.....he used to pester us a lot...with his talks....bt then he used to do it jz for fun.....yet coz i got irritated of it...i stopped tlkng to him....today he is no more in this world.....N nw i feel very guilty for the way i behaved with him....
I feel like sayng Sorry to him....I wanna tell him dat though he used to pester me....he was my frnd...
Bt now it is tooooooo LATE....coz he is no more between us....he will no more be there when we get together as a group.....n dat hurts me a lot.....

So I am writing this to tell one n all that....if there is nythng dat u gotta say to sm1....say it out now....before it is toooo Late....

coz den u can only regret....u can only feel guilty dat u cudnt say wot u wanted to.....

LIFE IS VERY MYSTERIOUS....U never know wot will happen when....So say out loud what u gotta say....be it Sorry....or nythng else....

So this is to all my frnds..... Thnx for being there for me....i treasure u all....each one for theior own special reason.....

I try to grasp smthng wit my hands...bt I get only AIR!!!

Times have passed....Moments have lapsed....
Memories have faded....'n everythng has changed.....

Those few words that brought a smile on my face....
Those words are lost....'n vanished into thin air....

In their place now, there's a void I cant fill.....
A lost understanding....'n an empty space....

Where there was jz fun 'n play....
Now there is only tempers that flay!!!

I try to fill the void...but in vain....
I feel I overcame it...But I am always proved wrong....

I have jz turned my back to it....
Hoping to forget 'n win over it!!!!

But even now when I face it....
It's still there...that VOID...that EMPTY SPACE!!!!

Reminding about YOU 'n a lost "ME"..........

Its sooooo true....

Times have passed...Moments have lapsed...
Memories have faded....'n everythng has changed....

[ Time 'n distance changes everythng.....Dats a fact u cant deny!!! My hand stil tries to grasp smthng in dat void!!! :( ]

Zindagi....doston.....

Zindagi mein har cheez aasani se mile, to kya maza hai????
Thodi si takleef, thodi gila na ho, to kya maza hai???
Khushiyo ki ruksat aur gamon ki barsaat na ho to zindagi nahi!!!
Aasuon ke bina hasi ki koi ehmiyat nahi!!!

Zindagi mein har pal muskaan cha jaye ye zaroori to nahi,
Par jaddo jehed (sangharsh) mein bhi jo has paye, sikandar hai wahi!!!

Saath apno ka har dam rahe ye mumkin to nahi...
Aaj yahi hai, kal kaha ho, ye khabar nahi!!!

Mita do faasale, do pal ke liye hi sahi,
Jaan lo hume, aap hi ki parchayi hai, koi gair nahi.

e-dosto, jaan na mangna humse, hum na de payenge,
Agar jaan de de, to hum doston ke kaatil kehlayenge!!!

Samjhe??? Kyuki aap dost hi to hamari jaan hai!!!

(Dedicated to all my friends... A special thnx to those who helped me learn a bit of urdu so dat i cud compile dis mch...thnx Arshad...Asif...Ayub....)

A SMILE dat refused to leave MY FACE!!! :)

Yesterday when I got up it seemed like jz another day!!!

Nothng different to do or think…Infact I was tied up wit so mch wrk that I cudnt evn thnk of getting sm rest….N dat had made me feel sick!!!! Tryng to cope wit so many deadlines together…it was another very very busy day!!!

I never thought the day wud turn out the way it did!!!

Bt it strtd d usual way, getting up late…tryng to do sm wrk….bt ended up chatting rather than doing the assignment…a frnd of mine jz pakauing me as usual….

Then sm calls….then again a bit of chattin…n by the time I strtd wrkng seriously….HERE GOES THE POWER!!!!...

N I end up yelling at d MSEB people for these power cuts – A BIG TIME NUISANCE!!!!

Nt knowing wot to do…n as pissed off as I was…I thot I wud better not do smthng related to studies…N that was a gud nuf reason to pick up my novel and finish it off!!! J

Some interesting scenes in it…reading which I ended up laughing….n sch wer the scenes dat laughter turned into a smile n stayed with me…jz refusing to GO!!!

Again wen the power came…I was bck to my wrk…bt dis time I had decided that I wud do sm serious wrk…n I strtd wit it…bt aftr smtime…getting bored…I got bck to chatting….n then 1 of my frnds showed me sm community with hilarious remarks..!!! N again dat smile wich never went away…turned into another round of laughter!!!

Later in the eve, I went out, a friend called up n there I was gvng him a treat of my faltu to faltu P.J.’s…Men!! I was having a gr8 time at his expense!!!!!! I had hired an auto n as I spoke to him on phone…I ended up gvng the rickshaw wala more than wot I intended….I cud do nothng bt laugh at my sheer stupidity, especially coz I had argued wit him to tk me to the place at a lower rate than wot he had told!!!! Dat was dat….

Nw into the temple I went…I had to ask them to do sm poojas n all….bt as I was late for the day…they said “they cant do it today”….So then I askd wud they do it tom…N I was so concerned abt it that I ended up askng the same Q a no. of times….At this an uncle there answered “Oh!! No, v wont do it tom” N he strtd laughin…coz of d expression on my face…I was worried n bewildered coz 1 said they wud do it…n the other was contradicting him….All my worry was jz dat if this pooja isn’t done then m gonna get hell lot of scoldings at home for hvng rchd there late!!!!!!!!! Bt then lukng at dat uncle’s face I realized he was jz jokin….Oh!! then I cud do nothng bt join him in his laughter….

The smile jz remain pasted to my face!!! Nt ready to leave me!!!! N there she remained….N people everywhere jz lukng at me coz I was smiling, particularly at no1 or nythng, as if I was mad!!! N that thought only broadened my smile!!...assuring them that I was actually mad!!! Hahahaha!!!!

Ignoring these stares…I walked on ‘n on…N all the while I was jz thnkng abt all those thngs dat brought a smile on my face…N I was smiling smiling n smiling all the way!!! Bt suddenly lost in thought, I tripped n was abt to fall, bt smhw I regained my balance and took care of myself…People stared at me more!!! N I cudnt help but laugh at my carelessness!!! Hehehehehe…..

N such was my day!!! Dat jz began normal bt turned out to be all smiles…n this 1 day will go dwn my memory lanes as the most beautiful n the most pleasant days of my LIFE!!!

N such days are really necessary in this fast fast world…where u hv no time to stop n think n no time to smile at such trivial issues…Bt jz thnk hw mch smile these small thngs brought to my face@!!! N hence so many others smiled to coz of me!!! N wot else cud b the best thng better than “Mkng others smile with ur own stupidity!!!!!!!!!”

So kp Smilin!!! Sch trivial issues cud also mk ur day the best…So gv them a thot!!! N don’t jz let them float by as if it doesn’t matter!!!!

Am I wrong?????

Am I wrong?? Am I bad??

Am I just one heck of a gal
Who always does everything wrong??
Who doesnot know how to behave??
One who doesnot know how to speak??
'n doesnot, above all, know to keep mum???

Am I wrong, if I do simple things like, sway to the music??
'n dance to the beats of a song??
If I while away my time, by doing things I like??

Why is it that whatever I like is always bad or forbidden??
'n when I finally do it, I get hell lot of scoldings....?

Am I wrong, if I chatter away endlessly???

If not, then, why do people wonder when I will shut my mouth???
Then again, if I keep mum, why can't they stand my silence...

What people donot understand is that....
These are the ways to keep worries of my mind....
To smile even in desperate times,
'n to shun the tears, that otherwise fill my eyes.....

It feels so lonely!!! with noone to speak to 'n fight....
With noone to share my feelings....
'n noone to confide, I realise!!!
'n so when I get someone...on 'n on I go....chattering wildily...
speaking about good 'n bad times with much ado....

Am I wrong??? Am I bad???
The Question still remains unanswered...
'n I wonder and wonder....
'n while doing so off I drift to sleep....
wetting my pillows...n fighting against sheer pain....

(mebbe I am bad...n wrong...coz y wud evry1, otherwise, have a prob with me???)

Nostalgia.....

When I look back at those beautiful days,
How I wish I could get them back
It brings a smile, slow and subdued...
In concert with tears of pain and hurt....

When I think of those tender moments with you,
How I miss them and How I miss you!!!
Your memories well up in my eyes...
A product of our affectionate ties...

They long to see you and hold your stare....
Although you are in them everywhere....
Sweetheart!! for you, I do care!!
Anything for you I will bear...

Nostalgia rushes through my veins,
Rushing in like waves of sweet pain....
Breaking, one after the other, the walls...
Walls of my strength and will power...

Breaking through them and leaving me bare...
Naked to hurt and the desolate air....
Uhhh!! Nostalgia.....

----Dedicated to my darling friend....u make me feel divine... :)

A million thanks to my frnd who has helped me make this poem more effective...thanks a lot....