Insecure...

Life moves on...
Bedecked with some happy moments...
N some bad ones scattered in between....
Both together makes life, i know....

But still why do I feel down???
Why do I want you with me now???
Why my love feels insecure???
Why cant I handle when you are not near???

Why do I love you so much???
That I cant bear you with anyone else???
Its not good I know...
Infact its the worst one can get...

I know..!!! I know...!!! I am being bad...!!!
I know I am going far...
But still I cant handle myself...
I love you so much... Why????

Am I possessed???
Or have I gone far???
Have I become obssessed about you???
Am I really being bad???

I cant trust myself....
I cant trust what I do....
I know I am going far...
But still there is nothing I can do...

Save me...!!! I pray endlessly...
Forgive me if I do anything wrong...
Help me when I falter...
N bash me for being bad...

I love you too much...
Mebbe I am just afraid to lose....
I miss you....my love...
I hope u accept me for d bad dat I am....

The feeling of being SOMEONE'S....

How does it feel…?
When someone whom you love,
Truly and Deeply…
Just stops talking…
Doesn’t give a reason…
N blames you of not loving them…?

It’s killing…
N you just wanna cry…
You want to shake him up…
N tell him that u LOVE him,
To tell him that he is wrong…!
But he is ANGRY….! He is not speakin….!

You feel like u r going CRAZY….
That the world is MAD at u….
That nothing is going right….
N that your LOVE is not understood…
Why can’t he see beyond the mask I wear….
Why can’t he read my eyes…n listen to ma heart….!
N feel ma LOVE…?

M blaming him n I wanna hit him hard…
But then why don’t I realize…
Why can’t I see…
That m the one who is wrong….
That I don’t understand…
That he considers me his…
That I am being loved….?
N that His anger….is his LOVE in disguise…


Coz u don’t get angry on someone whom u don’t consider yours……

Sitting at a seashore, gazing at the sea. It appears to be so calm. Flowing quietly, small waves coming in from the oblivion and dying at the shore. A silent death. So beautiful and so calm. Far away at a distance, the sea merging with the blue blue sky. Their convergence, the horizon!!! How wonderful it looks.

Everything is so peaceful without! But within? Is it as peaceful? Is it this calm? Does the sea flow just as silently within, as it flows at the surface? Is the sky as calm as it appears to be? The beautifully dressed up earth, what is the reason behind its beauty? Does there exist such beauty deep under the earth's surface?

No!!! Everything that appears calm and beautiful without, has a turmoil within! Everything is beautiful! Everyone has beauty! But the turmoil that goes on inside, enhances its beauty.

A simple smile on a person's face! It looks so charming, isn't it? Adds so much grace to that person! Beautifies them, but more than that it spreads warmth. It brightens up so many lives. But have you given it a thought? Have you ever cared to know? What is behind that smile? What's the truth behind that mask? More often than not, its a chaos! An emotional turmoil that mystifies them!

Emotions playing within, striking and contradicting each other. Adding to the strife that's already there. Emotions, that make you smile nut that makes you cry as well! Its a task to rule over them and remain sane when insanity rules within. Its a task, to smile when you dont know what you are going through, when you cant understand yourself! Life takes you to such an edge time and again!

Sentiments that drive you crazy! Feelings that you cant accept! I am afraid to realize what I feel. I am afraid to accept my feelings. I am afraid to acknowledge them! I fear of losing that I wanna treasure! I am afraid of the future, that I dont konw!

The dream seems to be too beautiful to be true! I want it that way, I wanna accept it! But I am afraid of it getting shattered. Shattered, into million pieces that I wont be able to collect!!!

I am afraid of my EMOTIONS!!! I am afraid of MYSELF!!!

I wanna love you but I am afraid......

Relationships, today, do not exist. Today’s world is so fast, u tend to lose touch. U might not intend to, but u have no time for d most loved ones. U wanna be with that special someone in your life, U wanna let your friends know that they r cared for n that they do mean so much to u. But u have no time!!!

And in today’s world, relationships are not easy to handle. U need to work every way to make them feel that they are cared for n that they are treasured.

Love, today, means that u take care of the smallest of things. Dammit!! Do u have the time to do so? Can u take care that every single thing is dealt with by u yourself??? Is it humanly possible that u alone reach-out and do all the things for your loved ones???

Love does not and can never mean fulfilling formalities. It does not mean that u spend every waking moment with your dear ones. It means to understand the silence of each other. It means to know that even in their busy schedule they care for you. It means to know that wherever they are they love you the same way as they used to.

It just means to be there for each other and to LOVE each other without reservations and without expectations.

LOVE, for one thing, is not formalities. It goes BEYOND that. It goes beyond everything. It is EVERYWHERE. It is in ME!! It is in U!!

It just means to LOVE....

So Love ya....Alwayzzzzzzzzz

Life and its ways!!!

Relationships tend to have a strange way about them. They take a different form with every passing moment. Some may just fade away from your memory, while yet others creep into your life in the most unexpected manner. Some, who already were a part of your life, become the special ones overnight. You really cant point out when, where, how and why relations take an unexpected turn.

There might be people in your life whom you respect and love. There might be people whom you wanna keep with yourselves throughout your life. There might be yet others who stay with you for just a few days and then move on into a special world of their own.

Relationships tend to end one day. There ain’t many that stand the test of time and go on to become immortal. But then, there ain’t anything that is immortal.

The one thing that, I suppose, all should understand is – Life brings us face to face with many people. Its not possible that everyone stay with us throughout. Its even more common to lose the ones whom we actually wanna tie to ourselves. That’s the norm of life. We don’t have to be sad about it. We don’t have to brood on it. You just need to realize that - you gave them the best of what you have. And got everything good that they could give to you. Now, there is nothing left to exchange. And, in this vast wide world there exists not a single thing that is not based on this rule – Give and Take. When there is nothing left to exchange then it dies a silent death. The same relation may be revived when again you have something to exchange. That is how life moves.

Very few people can stay together for long. Its true that we can call such relations as the true ones, the deep ones, which have some meaning to it. Such relations are those which are purely based on true emotions. Maybe love, may be respect, or may be some other. And these are the only things that can be exchanged endlessly. This makes those relations stand out.

Now the other question that pops up in my mind when you speak about love is, whether a guy and a gal can remain just friends and love each other for being just that? I believe that this is possible. But I have come across people who say that guys and gals can never remain just friends. I don’t know why they say that! I have not yet been able to understand the logic behind their statement.

I have people in my life whom I love truly, mostly guys. But that just doesn’t mean that I love them in a sense, where they are no more friends. This crap logic of people is just because they are not mature enough to understand emotions and relations ( that’s what I feel).

We don’t love people for what they are.. we love them for what they make us..when they are with us. We love them for the simple reason that we are ourselves when around them. Because we don’t put up an act when around them. Because that is when we are true to ourselves and others. I think that is when a relation becomes special!!!

When we are true to ourselves and the other person. Relationships really tend to have a way of their own!!

Xpct The Unxpctd!!!

It is soooooo unbelievable.....n soooooo unreal.....Yet it is d truth...the fact of LIFE....
It is the way of life....the MYSTERIOUS way of LIFE....!!!

Can u thnk of lovin smone whom u used to hate frm the core of ur heart??? Can u thnk about being frnds wit smone whom u nvr used to tlk wit???? Can u atleast imagine about tlkng to a person for hrs together when u r actually talkng to him for d 1st time????

Seems to b ver unreal, aint it???...seems to b impossible???

I dunno hw many of u vil agree wit it n hw many vil disagree...

Bt I can say one thing for sure that...I thought this to be really impossible..Bt nw I am forced to say that...."Yes, I can imagine all of the above stated things..."

Because, its not once but many times that I've experienced this. Its not a rare event but an occasional one in ma life. Infact, it is the norm of ma life for smtime nw....

Help has come to me frm the most unthought of corners...Love has been showered upon me by the ones whom I thought to b heartless....I have found a caring and supporting soul in the most hardened of hearts....

Friends on whom I used to bet my life have turned their backs on me (many a times...) And the ones whom I never imagined to be my friends ended being my treasures whom I couldn't afford to lose....

N d most unimaginary thng dat has latest happened in my life is to find smone who actually spks my thoughts...dreams my dream...n thnks d way I do...barring a few differences I cant find nythng dat differntiates me fr him...N dats smthng Icant believe....Its as if I spk to myself...Nw dat doesnt ahppen everyday!!! Does it????

So...wot I can learn frm dis is dat...U shud learn to xpct d unxpctd....b ready to face ny topsy turvy turn in life....n to accept evrythng that cms ur way wit both hands open....coz.....

LIFE IS A MYSTERY DAT NOONE HAS YET UNDERSTOOD!!!

Life Is Wot U Make Of It....!!!!

Life is wot u make of it…..happy if u see it happy [:)] …sad if u see it sad [:(] ….its ur choice…n its ur wish….

U cant blame ur life or ny1 for dat matter for wotevr u feel….coz u made d choice to c it wit tinted glasses….

C life as it is….black n white…don’t tint it wit ur thoughts and imaginations and feelings….watch it play lightly and enjoy evry moment…der is reason to b happy throughout…u jz have to find it….u jz have to realize….

Know it…n there!!!! U r happy!!!! U r smiling!!! [:)]

Beamin wit joy [:D] coz der is evry reason to b so….coz u deserve the best frm life…coz life cms jz once……n ur soul is as pure as dat dewdrop on those tiny leaves…. [;)]

Dont u realize…u r makin a mistake???? [:0] Those tinted glasses are just fake!!!! Throw them away!!! Ur eyes are good nuf wen left to itself….n they show u the true joy of life!!!! Savour it…

N SMILE!!!!!! BIG NUF!!!! [:D]

Coz LIFE is wot U make of it!!!!!

Dats my commitment to LIFE!!!! Smile n b Happy throughout!!!!

[:)] [:D]